Speaker 1: 0:53

So I'm at a point in my life where I feel like change needs to happen, and I've got a lot of ideas and things that I'm thinking about, but I don't really have a lot of. I don't have clarity and a clear plan of what is next. But I can feel that there's a sense of like anxiety, of wanting to move forward, wanting to make a decision, wanting to change something, and I guess my question is is it best to be patient and wait for the clarity to come, or to take action on something, to not stay kind of in, I guess, a feeling of feeling a bit stuck?

Speaker 3: 1:40

I suspect clarity is there. You feel the desire and there is something that is compelling you. It's there and you just can't make sense of how it's all gonna unfold. How is that going to happen to? To wait for all the details is to place a condition on nature's intelligence that is wanting to deliver you a kind of a kind of experience that is going to strengthen and stabilize your capacity to move from this deeper, abstract intelligence that doesn't require pretext, that doesn't require any rational thinking and kind of some superficial justification as a trade-off from what you're already doing, because, ultimately, in order for us to live our life from the deepest place in ourself, we have to graduate ourself into this abstract place that does not take directives from you know the shoddy data from the past, because rationale and logic is really just based on shoddy data that we've accumulated and accrued from the past in lower states of consciousness. Right now, you're in the highest state of consciousness that you've ever been in, and in each passing moment that is the case, and so we only ever want to rely on the news as it's breaking now and the intelligence that we have available to us now and the capacity to interpret that intelligence with who we are now, rather than relying on some old framework, some old system of reference that has only led you to a point of confusion as to why it's not reliable right now, at some point we have to stop ignoring that this is happening and realize that, in order for us to truly be free and to be expressive of who we need to be, we need to liberate the design of our humanity, which is a profound intelligence and capability to interpret the impulses of this moment and respond in accordance with what it's doing, and recognize that there is a continuum in the theme of intelligence, that there is a continuum in the theme of intelligence In each passing moment you wake up, each day.

Speaker 3: 4:16

The desire is there, it's still there. What is that? That's you detecting that stream of intelligence, and it's just that you're trying to listen to it through the lens of a different language. It's speaking a language to you and you're trying to interpret it through a different language of logic, gross, conceptual, linear, sequentially elaborated, linguistically structured paradigm, which is a kind of crude outline of all the rich, deep information that you're getting at a much subtler level of your awareness, and so moving into higher states of consciousness is about learning to detect the experience that you're having at deeper states and to begin allowing yourself to accept that you understand the language of God. That is the impulse to want to act, and that is all that's relevant, and the only thing that nature is asking is get moving, just get moving, and the thing will materialize.

Speaker 3: 5:53

Around the phenomenon of acting on the desire Because we're like a machine in some respects, with predictable outcomes when we align ourselves with the intelligence or the geometry of nature that is in motion, constantly in motion, structuring itself in a very particular way, and when we activate on it and begin expressing it through our actions and our intentions and through our relationships and through what we do, the energy that is expressed through you interacts with those laws of nature that are responsible for coordinating circumstance, because there are laws of nature that are always coordinating circumstance relative to your expectation and karma. It's a beautiful combination of these things. It's a beautiful combination of these things, and all that's required is we just move, just start moving. This is how we discern what next? What next, what next?

Speaker 3: 7:04

What we try to do is write the whole story until I'm really clear on the whole story. I'm not. I'm not getting up off this chair, no, and so we'll sit there and we'll come up with a story in our mind. We'll go oh, that's really good. Yeah, I like that. Yeah, I'm getting up off this chair.

Speaker 3: 7:22

We take two steps and all of a sudden the story has changed and we're like see, I told you I don't trust you, universe, I'm going to sit here and live a half-baked life. Trust you, universe, I'm going to sit here and live a half-baked life. And this is preposterous because the story can only unfold in the moment. We're not understanding how the machine works. The way it works is get moving and it gets revealed as you go. And this is terrifying, living in the unknown, because we're so deeply indoctrinated into the paradigm of fear and control. We must control, outcome, must constantly be in control, which is a massive delusion. We're never in control. We're walking around thinking we are, and then, every now and then, we're just gravely disappointed that it didn't work out the way. I thought I was in control of it and it's like you were never in control in the first place. You're just not paying attention to how it's all unfolding. Just notice how it's unfolding and move with that, and that gets nature very excited. Ooh, one that can line up with it. Let's keep like supporting this enterprise.

Speaker 3: 8:51

The way we gain the support of nature's intelligence is by aligning with it, recognizing that there is something happening. Here I am participating, we are a team. Let's go and we're feeling the direction by the subtleness of the impulse. We can have ideas, that's fine, we can have a vision of where we might be going. But the trick is to have a very loose grip on it. Very loose grip. If we white-knuckle it, we don't get to feel the subtlety of it going. Just this way, this way, whereas we're loose, we can feel it moving in our hands. Oh okay, this way it's all subtle and, as rule of thumb, the higher the intelligence, the subtler it is, the subtler you get your consciousness, the higher the intelligence, the subtler it is, the subtler you get your consciousness, the higher the intelligence. Gross impulses are expressed as gross impulses, sort of broad brushstroke bits of information like Morse code. Bits of information like Morse code. We live in Morse code and we can cognize and speak like Shakespeare. We're all going.

Speaker 3: 10:33

That's a really good metaphor. Never used that one before. It's a really good metaphor. Never used that one before. It's a cracker, but that's what it's like. It's what it's like, and what we're seeking to do is to graduate ourself.

Speaker 3: 10:51

And this is the whole purpose of us meditating is to refine our sense perception and to include in our consciousness the complexity of this existence. And we want to always err on the side of refining and becoming more subtle in our consciousness, because then we are detecting more and more of the source of the impulse. We want news as it breaks. We want to get to the place where the, the impulse, is becoming expressed at the deepest level and then we are connecting with its full power. We feel the full power of it. The deeper we connect with the impulse of desire, the more we are connected to that. You know, it's like the difference between electricity on one level, surface level, atomic energy, mid-level, nuclear energy, at the source, as a, as a. You know, the deeper we get to the source of it, we're working with that real power and when we start becoming operational, from this power we emit massive waves of influence. And this is the design humanity was designed to be expressive of this deep, divine intelligence and the influence that it generates to create unity, harmony, to create and innovate something new out of the old.

Speaker 3: 12:30

All of that is being orchestrated innocently and spontaneously when we're operating from this place, but it requires us living perpetually in the unknown and we're being indoctrinated into succumbing to the ever-repeating known. That's a safe container, just staying in what's familiar and trying to innovate in that. How many different ways can I slice this up? And after a while we've kind of we exhaust it and it becomes very dissatisfying. But we're terrified of stepping outside of that and that's the only thing that holds us back. And we can tell ourselves all kinds of stories to justify staying in that container. All the reasons Well, I don't yet have the vision of all the details.

Speaker 3: 13:29

You know, whatever it is, it doesn't work like that. And if you think you've got it all worked out, you're kidding yourself. If you think you can see how it's all going to play out, you're kidding yourself. So we need to get comfortable with that and go oh, this is the way it works. This is the way it works. This is the way it works. So just start taking steps into the unknown and have some fun. Ooh, new, different, exciting. This is when we feel alive. It's the ever-repeating known that just makes us feel dull, heavy, hopeless. What's the point? I'm never going to get to where I want to be. I'm never going to get to experience what I want to experience. Life's never going to be what I think it should be for me. So many people are carrying that around and, while I understand it, you know, if we have awareness to witness that experience, it's incumbent on us to shatter that paradigm, crack it, step out. Yeah, pep, talk over. Pep talk over.

Speaker 2: 15:04

What role do goals and targets play within that sort of situation, and your karma as well? Is it just unrealistic to even have one realistic?

Speaker 3: 15:20

to to like even have one, or is it? If you create one, is it only destined to be not met? It's a really great question in this context. So it depends on the state of consciousness of the person asking. I'll speak about it generally.

Speaker 3: 15:30

You know, in a state of consciousness where there is no witness and there is only identify with the experience one is having, that is to say that there is a commentator inside the mind that is perpetually there, that is identified as the self. As meditators, we know that that commentary inside of the mind is just linguistically structured thought. It is not who we are, and we know that because we can witness it. The self doesn't witness the self. The self does the witnessing, and what the self is witnessing is a stream of thought that is linguistically structured, spoken in the sound of the voice that we speak in, and is a lunatic. Structured spoken in the sound of the voice that we speak in and is a lunatic. Yeah, right, and like you know, if you think that that's yourself, then it's, it's, it's tough, and so the way to hold it together in that state of consciousness is to create rigid structures and systems in the mind and to live by that. This is where we're going. I need a goal, that's it, and we kind of nudge our way forward with, you know, and the thing that really determines whether you get there or not, you know, you hear all these instagram memes of just never give up. Never give up. This is, you know, you know, says like maybe% of the people that made it and that's entirely karmic. You know, that was always going to happen, whether they never gave up or not. If they gave up, it still probably would have happened because there's karma there that causes that. So you know and I'm using some gross sort of crude examples here just to paint the picture it's on a spectrum and it's complex, but that's at one end of the spectrum.

Speaker 3: 17:40

The other end of the spectrum, we have somebody who is very established in themselves, has spent a lot of time noticing the patterns of the mind, has relinquished any identification with the madness of that, has established a very intimate relationship with their deepest sense of themselves, have accessed wonderful compassion and can be with the condition quite easily and effortlessly, without judging the self of this way or that, noticing that it's just all part of the repercussions of being a human alive and there is an ease in which they can operate within themselves and meet everyone and everything with that same ease and grace and compassion. And they notice, oh, I'm compelled to do things. What's the criteria of this? Because I have gone through the process of relinquishing, pursuing things in the name of getting validated by the world, so that's no longer a criteria. So what's motivating me to act? Well, I notice that I get most fulfilled when I'm of service to someone else and I'm able to contribute something that's of great, deep, meaningful value to them. Perhaps this is the criteria for which I should organize my life, a good impetus for how I should live. And so this person becomes intimate with the impulses that are moving through them and going.

Speaker 3: 19:15

Who's the author of this desire? And what becomes apparent is that the individual, the ego structure, the personality, is not the author. The impulses that compel this individual to move is stirred from some deeper, abstract place that one can identify as the self, but not like the way that they identify with themselves individually. It's more of a universal intelligence, a cosmic intelligence that's moving through them and is guiding and directing attention in a particular way. And the theme is oh, I'm being made useful, my attention is being directed where there is really a lot of need. And when one recognizes the theme, one kind of gets with the program and goes, oh okay, we're looking for need, and then there is an ownership of that power. One's graduated again. It's like, oh, I've recognized, I have power and I recognize what the theme is, that nature's intelligence is seeking out where there is need for the reflection of the truth of our existence and the elevation into that status.

Speaker 3: 20:39

And human consciousness is probably the single most powerful thing to to cause that effect in other humans. A human consciousness state can cause that effect in other humans. We can can elevate each other into these beautiful high states of consciousness. The whole tradition is about that. This function is called the guru, guru remover. Guru ru darkness. No, sorry, other way around Gu darkness ru remover. This function of nature acquires the human nervous system and we become an expression of the intelligence of the universe that wants to reveal itself to itself. This is the game. The universe wants to reveal itself to itself, it wants to pull back the curtain. And the human individuality, human consciousness, is the most artful, creative expression of this guru function can happen in different ways.

Speaker 3: 22:01

And so, getting back to your question, when that individual realizes that there is an intelligence moving. The goal is simply to be present and to detect nature's intelligence. That's the goal, because any kind of creation of goal outside of self, I want that. I'm going there and I want that and I'll conquer that, you know, and nature's going. Oh, maybe it's good to go over here or maybe it's good to go shush. I'm going there Because when I get there I'm going to declare that I'm worth something. Everyone will see that I'm lovable and I'm significant and I'm of some value and some worth. Because this is what drives the rigidity of, you know, pursuing a goal and you know, in some stages of evolution that's necessary, that's important. We just want that to happen as quickly as possible. We can get through that chapter. Great tick.

Speaker 3: 23:07

Now let's move on to the next chapter. Let's wake up inside and realize that we're actually not the author of the desire and it's no longer appropriate to steal that energy and to take it for our own hedonistic needs for self-gratification and validation, because that's essentially what we're doing, to put it bluntly. But you know, the universe is compassionate and understands the human condition. So we don't. You know there's understanding there, but we want to realize it really, really quickly how we're behaving in a very sacred existence, behaving in a very sacred existence. We need to sanctify our existence and make it holy and make every moment this. Every moment is an opportunity to be expressive of that intelligence and realize that what you have flowing through you is such a powerful and important gift for everyone and everything.

Speaker 3: 24:19

And the thing that inhibits that is being entrenched in unworthiness. The only way that we can liberate that potent energy for the world is to confront our unworthiness. This is the big cancer in the consciousness of humanity. It's at the heart of it unworthiness, unworthiness. And the moment we confront that and really see our beauty, our intrinsic value in the eyes of the divine, we're like blazing. That's power, because you and that are one and the same thing. Now, because what does love do? It unifies. If you allow yourself to experience the love of the divine in your own heart, you become unified, you're in alliance, you become that, you become that force. This is the mechanics of enlightenment. So at certain stages of consciousness this is a recap some certain states of consciousness, goals are important because it's a mechanism of orientation in a field of great confusion With the belief is that, in order for me to feel like I'm of value and I've achieved something in my life.

Speaker 3: 25:48

I need lots of people standing around me going like that and to have a car and a bank balance and this and that and all of these things, whatever it is, whatever the image is of achievement and success, whatever it is, whatever the image is of achievement and success. But the you know the downside of that is when you get to there you're like, says pretty much everyone that has really, you know, done it and tick the box, and then you know that's where the work starts here. So that's why we want to get through that chapter pretty quickly so we can get on with the real satisfaction. Where do you think the unworthiness comes from? Yeah, it's an intergenerational condition of ignorance.

Speaker 3: 26:45

When we are disconnected sensorially from the source of our being, we are not having the direct experience of our divine nature and we are trying to get information about who we are and what the nature of reality is by referencing the outside world, where everybody is having the same experience and the blind are leading the blind, we create layers of complex ignorance and disassociation from the source of our being. And we live in such a time, in such a world, where we are so profoundly removed like you just need to just pay attention to a slither of what's happening in the world right now. This is the byproduct of the result of having no direct experience of our divine nature, and it's been a series of events hundreds, if not thousands, of generations in the making. You know, hundreds, if not thousands of generations in the making. And it's a fascinating condition of humanity and life on this planet that the density of ignorance is so profound, that we can be so beautiful and have such incredible creative capacity to innovate and to evolve and to care for one another, to create beauty, to appreciate beauty, and yet be so confused and so utterly captivated by frivolity and superficiality and forego the truth of our being in the name of appearing like something. It's fascinating, isn't it? Because we're so deep?

Speaker 3: 29:09

And, as far as I can ascertain, it's just a condition of intergenerational disassociation of our divine nature. Disassociation of our divine nature and the only cure for it, for unworthiness. And so when we exist in a world where who we feel ourselves to be carries no intrinsic value that can be traded upon in our society, you know, you don't go to a job interview and say I'm a kind, generous person. You're hired. It's like no, okay, you know there's not a lot of intrinsic value. That is in terms of how we trade in the human spirit. You're celebrated if you're fierce and actually detached. Can you do the dirty work? If you can do the dirty work, I'll pay you more because that's the only way you'll win in this world. And you know, again, this is a crude example, but it's one we can all go. Oh yeah, I've got evidence of that.

Speaker 3: 30:30

I understand that it's in the vein of what's happening in the world. You know social status is based on. You know, the shape of your body, the shape of your face, the people that you know how wealthy you are. If you've got all of those things going on, you're ranking high. You can buy your way into that if you've got lots of money, and it's just amazing how we celebrate that and we reward that. We don't reward behavior, really. We don't reward honesty, we don't reward authenticity. Society doesn't reward that and sometimes it will go as far as punishing it. Don't ruin the game. Stop spoiling the fun for the few that have. You know, got it all.

Speaker 3: 31:42

So you know, living in a world like this eventually just grinds on you If there's no place for you to be expressive of who you truly are and what really matters, then you lose connection to its value and something dies or feels like it dies inside and we forget. We can forget who we are. And something dies or feels like it dies inside and we forget. We can forget who we are. And yet there's this abstract yearning inside of us, just oh, something's not right, but I don't know what to do about it, you know. And so who am I anyway? To change anything, I just need to kind of comply, participate. If I'm going to have any kind of happy life, I need some status, and that's the dominant consciousness, and that's the dominant consciousness. And then we've got some fringy, rogue souls that are like no, thank you, I want me. How do I fit into this world? No, I don't. All right, let's make the world fit into me. All right, let's make the world fit into me.

Speaker 3: 33:01

And you know, we go on the deep adventure of, you know, moving through the terrain of our inner reality and confronting all the darkness and all the demons and all the things, quietly in our meditation, in our room, lying in bed, just like, oh, nobody knows. But then you get up in the morning you're like I'm just going to radiate the love and you you're contributing in ways that are just so far beyond your comprehension in terms of, like, the physics behind that, what it's doing, how it's informing humanity slowly of who it really is, by defying that whole torrenting mainstream, standing against the current, just going. Not, these are my values. That's what I'm about.

Speaker 3: 34:02

Sometimes it's really hard, but you do it anyway and we cultivate worthiness through the, the process of revealing who we are to ourself. Eventually, you can't ignore it. Oh no, I no, I'm made of something here. I am of something very important here, and you notice that others notice and we start gathering and talking about it, and then we become unified in our efforts to elicit this effect. We become deliberate. It becomes our thing. This is our thing. This is our thing, right, this is our thing. This is how we lead our life. This is the main event. It's not a side hustle. This is the main event. It's not a side hustle, it's the main event. And when we move into that, we liberate not only our own worthiness but it oozes into the hearts of everybody that you have contact with. They feel something that's different.

Speaker 3: 35:20

You don't have to say anything. They feel something that's different.

Speaker 3: 35:21

You don't have to say anything. It's conveyed in anything that you say. I like the fact that you have tires on your four wheel drive. It doesn't matter who you say it, who you're speaking to, it's conveyed in your being, whatever it is on on any level, because it's about your presence, and this is the most important thing that we need to understand. We are human beings before we are human doings. In our beingness, we emit our highest intelligence, and then we can commentate on it with words that we speak, and then we can commentate on it with words that we speak. But the words we speak is only a commentary on something more essential that is already happening. It doesn't matter what you say. It's the quality of your presence, it's the frequency that you emit. If you are connected to that place, yeah, so that's where the unworthiness comes from. If you are connected to that place, yeah, so that's where the unworthiness comes from, and that's also the resolution to it Breaking that ancestral line. It stops here. The toxicity of ignorance stops right here, with me, next generation, awesome, empowered.